11:11.
To New beginnings. Lost love. Consistent inconsistency and happy days ahead. Happy 11:11
Consistency. Mmm.
I’d like to attach a motto to it that says:…..is the spice of life.
Four years ago, around this time my mind was filled with thoughts of Nysc and fashion design/illustration, a year and a few months later, my mind was filled with bag designs, about a year and a few months later, my mind was filled with thoughts of digital design, to say the least, and the list goes on and on.
As a creative, an evolving one, I’ve noticed that my mind loves to wonder and linger from place to place.
The quest to be everywhere and nowhere is a constant battle I face. What do I focus on out of all the choices and options I have.
Alexa, play decisions must be made ft. my future.
Growing up, my dad made my siblings and I write strategic plans for our future from time to time. “Where and who do you want to be in 10 years?” “What about 5 years ?”
Those days it was easy. Daydreaming was the order of the day, and even if it still comes visiting sometimes, adulthood has made it clear to me that it’s either I focus more on reality or I’d have to start building my dreams in bubbles.
A few months ago, during the lockdown, my dad once again, tasked us with the “where do you want to be in _______ years” challenge. Of course, I tried to be more realistic and factual, based on how adulthood had dealt with me, but if I really wanted to answer that question, it would most likely contain a few single words.
Happy, Fulfilled, Content and Grateful, but life knows better. It sure knows how to make the journey so rough that when we get to where we need to be, the places we have so desired and yearned for, we take deep breathes, bask in the joy of the moment, and draw up new plans and aspirations to meet a greater sense of purpose.
It’s wild, but it’s how life is. There will always be higher heights to climb, more achievements to attain, and obviously more lives to touch.
For me, my inconsistency haunts and at the same time gives me a sense of fulfillment. A little illustration on Monday that makes someone feel alive, a little chat on Tuesday that warms someone’s heart, a paper creation on Wednesday that opens someone up to believe that things are possible.
Last week, I had a meltdown, which I’ve come to accept is okay. Reminiscing, “what could have been”, and obviously leaving out that parts where my presence had someone brought about a positive change to someone. Essentially leaving out the parts where people indirectly said “ Ekab, thank you so much for this, your breeze of inconsistency blew this my way today, and it was just what I needed”.
As usual, negativity leaves out the part where you thrived and drowned out the yells and screams of your demons from the past.
The struggle to be positive every day is not easy, yet to understand what inconsistency means in my life and why it decided to pick me is undoubtedly complicated.
Being someone that reads a lot of self-development books, I understand the importance of consistency, and I’m proud to say that the blend of consistency and inconsistency in my life, especially in my 20s has given me so much room to grow and evolve.
It’s quite expensive to be inconsistent, and I mean it in every way possible: financially, physically, materially, and spiritually, but I’d say this: inconsistency is needed to navigate your path, and that is something that is totally up to you. What kind of life do you want to live?
A pre-planned cliche life of routines? Or a fulfilled life with a whole jar of inconsistencies here and there that would lead to where you need to be.
The ball is in your court.
Till next time.
Stay keep your head up.
Love, E. 💞
